Wednesday, March 18, 2009

back to my life...

work is so much better now.
we got the bunny last night but nik had to go buy a live trap. the bunny is snuggled up with sam right now.
the bees are gone. the bee guy showed up with a chainsaw and a rubbermaid container. i guess all you need is the queen and the bees do the rest.
the cat is still pregnant. she is at least 5 weeks that we can verify which would make her about 8 weeks and ready to pop. she looks like a beachball with arms and legs. i can see the kittens moving in her belly!
abby was just sick for 3 days. doc says virus. i hope noone else gets it.
isaac is getting ready for pinewood derby.
we are getting ready for the weekend. our wonderful new friends have decided to watch ALL of our kids this weekend. i think they are crazy! we are trying to think of someplace cool to escape to that isn't too far away.
in other really sad news...
kristens house burned down last night. i guess the red cross is helping out and niks parents will be going out there to help. i feel so bad for them. there ien't much nik and i can do. financially, we can't do much. with all of the family drama and tension, we can't really offer support or go out there to help. i wish things were different but there's only so much that can be done when people won't budge. honestly, with history being what it is, if our house burned down i would probably be ok with just our friends here with us. i hope krissy has freinds like that there for her.

Monday, March 16, 2009

ok...back from whereever i was...

It has been way too long. I finally have another laptop. a little mini laptop. i dont have anymore excuses!

ok another update then hopefully back to my little blog...

Abby: Went to her first dance. it was cute. the girls dressed like they were going to prom, the boys wore jeans and tshirts. they lined up on opposite side of the gym too. at least i dont have to worry about some things...yet.
Abby wasn't telling us she had homework which led to it not getting done which led to bad grades etc. Nik met with her teachers and hopefully we've got it figured out now. I hope Abby understands that we can't help her if we dont know whats wrong. She's a smart kid, once all her back homework is turned in, she'll have all a's and b's.
she got to have her birthday at disney which was awesome!
Sam: has seen just about every dr there is. i dont know whats going on. we are waiting to hear back from the geneticist and rhumatologist.
his behavior has been wacked. he is being desrutctive and screaming a lot. it's been exhausting.
Isaac: has been memorizing musicals. i guess it's his thing. he knows all the songs including dance moves from "mama mia", he also memorized Jesus Christ Superstar, Les Mis, Phantom, and Hairspray. i guess that apple didnt fall far from the tree!
he is really compassionate when it comes to understanding our frustrations with sam. he tries to help out where he can and he always knows when to put his little hand on your shoulder.
Simon: we are taking that little guy to childrens for an evaluation. i dont think he has autism but something isn't quite right there. sweetest little guy ever just delayed.
Rachel: all girl! she is smart, a such a princess! she cut her bangs down to the scalp which was totally devastating because her hair doesn't grow. she still has no hair and now, no bangs.
Nik: lost his job on january. he has been the stay at home daddy since. he's been getting unemployment which is good. with me working fulltime, we are making it by.
there are no jobs right now and with everything nik is dealing with, i think taking a break isn't such a bad idea. he has looked at jobs in dubai which really seems like an excellent opportunity for us and the kids. we'll see what happens.
me: i tried to stop taking my medicine again. i think i really need it which is what i say everytime. i went through a month of horrible withdrawl and now i can barely stay awake. i guess i should try it again.
i still love my job. i've had some issues with some co workers but i think it will be ok. my job is my respite. my old people, my friends.
the pets: ruby had to be put down in january. she was born with deformed hip joints and one day while playing in the snow with the kids she tore the ligaments out of her hips. she needed surgery which we couldn't get covered and it was going to cost $12,000. we had to make the call. she was in a lot of pain but it was still very hard.
chloe is still kicking. she'll be 14 soon. we've had a revolving door of misc stray cats. we are down to one but she is pregnant so who knows how many we'll have here soon. abby got a bunny for 4h but as i type this, nik is trying to coax it out from under our deck.
we are in the process of having a tree taken down, a driveway put in and getting a dumpster for all the junk we are finally getting rid of. that has been niks job while he's at home.
there's more but at least that's an overview.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

ok...this is ridiculous

It has been goodness knows how long since I've blogged. I have to replace my laptop!
Since my last blog....
Me: I broke not one but BOTH of my feet. Ruby was peeing on the floor so I came running down the stairs and rolled both my feet. I spent 12 weeks in various boots and wraps etc. I had to take most of that time off work. And I gained 20 pounds sitting on my butt for three months. We also cancelled Disney again. (We are going in February.) My feet are feeling much better now. Occasionally there are snaps, crackles, and pops from my feet. And if I walk a lot they ache. I've been wearing sneakers everywhere and I bought "old lady shoes" in black so I didn't look like a complete dork at my Christmas party for work.
I still love my job! I want to cut my hours though because I can't keep up with 5 kids and work.
Nik: Is depressed and plodding along. His family has seriously been causing him stress. His sisters husband was recently diagnosed with ALS so we went to their house for Thanksgiving. We aren't really close to them but wanted to extend our support and offer to help. We weren't well received. Thanksgiving was a bust, we fought with his parents, Nik realized just how bad his family sucks and now he's trying to deal. Nik has a bunch of feelings to deal with before he can move forward. As his best friend, I'm here for him but that also makes me the closest one to him. Unfortunately, you tend to lash out at the people you're closest to. It has been rough to say the least. We'll get through it though.
Abby: Quit Girl Scouts because her leader is mean. This has been confirmed by other kids and parents but I guess my strong willed girl decided she wasn't going to put up with it. I didn't want her to quit but I will say the leader is not role model material so it might be for the best.
Abby is growing into a beautiful young lady. She is helping more around the house and in general she's outgrowing being a kid.
Sam: Took antibiotics for 12 weeks for his legs. His legs cleared up and he was doing really good until one day he woke up and couldn't walk. I'll make a blog about just him later. He is having more spontaneous speech and he seems ready for a communication device. He hated everything about going away for Thanksgiving, the drive, the hotel, break in routine, everything. We decided not to take him to Disney because I think it would be really hard for him. He has been sleeping on the couch for about a month now, I'm not sure why but he wants to be where we are.
Isaac: He's coming into his own. He has friends and interests now. He's finding out who he is. He's a cool little kid. I will say this, he never gives us any trouble. He doesn't get enough credit but he is the one who listens the first time, does what he's told, is quiet, he's just a really good kid.
Simon: Requires his own blog too.
Rachel: Is cute as a button! She's addicted to Barney. She still has her "bubby" (bottle). I know she shouldn't but she's probably my last baby so i haven't been very forceful with her. Rachel is all little princess. Abby loves her to death. They sleep in the same bed everynight and snuggle it's sooo cute.

I guess that's enough for now...

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Holy cow I'm behind...

ok:
The power is back on. We were out for almost 5 days. But our computer is still down because we are putting a new floor down in the family room.
Sam: The dermatologist said he thinks it's excema that became cellulitous because of the open wounds and infection. Sam has to take antibiotics, a different one, for at least a month. He is taking medicine to control the itching, and we have creams and oils to put on him. His skin looks so good! We still need to see a rheumatologist because the skin, asthma, and allergies could all be related.
Me: I rolled my foot running down our stairs 2 weeks ago. I'm still limping around. I didn't break anything but I did something to it. My foot is all bruised and still hurts.
Rachel got stung by a bee again today and ended up taking another ride in a squad. She is very allergic. Now I'm going to freak out everytime she goes outside.

Monday, September 15, 2008

updates galore

sam: his legs are looking really good with the antibiotics. i hope the dermatologist can still figure out whats wrong.
me: i tripped down our stairs which are old and steep and hurt my foot. ruby was starting to pee on the carpet (a bad habit she picked up from the squatters dog) anyway, i started to run downstairs to take her out and ended up on the floor at the bottom. nik was at work but the kids were very helpful abby got me ice, isaac called nik, simon brought me a glass of water (he got a dirty glass out of the dishwasher but at least the thought was nice). so, t took me to the er where i found out i didn't break anything. i got a pair of crutches and a nice looking boot to wear. i tried to go to work the next day but it didn't work out. i do think it's just a bad bruise and a few days rest should be good.
the squatters: left on friday without asking for money. i haven't heard from them since. uh, your welcome.
hurricane ike: blew through here yesterday. we lost a big tree in our front yard which took out power for the whole road. it will be 3 days before they fix it because there are thousands of people without power right now. we have a generator so we're kind of functioning. right now, i'm on c's laptop using her phone for connection.
as soon as they get the power lines out of the tree, we'll be busy cleaning up the big mess. at least it didn't come toward the house!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11th

Since this blog is about my experiences, I thought I would remember what that day was like...
Nik was unemployed for going on 3 months and he was doing odd jobs for money. The morning of 9/11, he was painting someones house. I was sleeping when the phone started ringing. It was my sister in law who is a flight attendant. She told me to turn on the news. It was right after the first plane hit. The kids were still sleeping. I sat watching the TV thinking about Nik being a pilot and what could have happened to make someone crash into a building. I was watching live as the second plane hit the tower. The panic in the newscasters voice said it all. WTF is going on?
I called Nik and told him to turn on a radio and come home. The kids woke up. Abby was 3, Sam 18 months and Isaac just 3 months old. I sat waiting for Nik to come home, nursing my baby thinking "what is going to happen to us?"
My mother called and wanted to know if Nik knew anything from being a pilot. I told her how I've seen the flight map at Niks work. How at any given time there are thousands of planes in the sky. Thinking about all those planes crashing into something was too much. When Nik got home we prayed. That's all you can do I guess.
That night after watching coverage all day, we sat up late wondering what would happen to our kids if a war was fought on American soil. We talked about our dreams and our priorities. We talked about what kind of life we wanted for us and our kids and how that may not happen. We talked about whats really important and how we were still in the black after almost three months of no paychecks.
We woke the next morning to the phone. It was a job offer for the job Nik still has today. What a turn around!
On September 15th, Nik was told he would need to go to Kansas for 3 months of training. He called to tell me he would be leaving in 2 hours. I decided on the spot that the kids and I were going with him. I didn't want to be away from him with planes still not being able to fly and no one really knowing what was going on. I got everything packed and off we went.
The drive was strange. The patriotism that came out after 9/11 was breathtaking. As we drove across the country, flags were everywhere! On bridges, overpasses, on trucks, cars, buildings, signs, everywhere. It was so comforting to see that this horrible event actually brought everyone together. We truly were Americans, all of us.
I still remember how I felt sitting on the couch that morning. My mom told me she feels the same way about when Kennedy was shot and when Oklahoma City was bombed. I guess it's one of those feelings you never forget.

Sam

Yesterday, the school was concerned (and I totally understand) about Sams legs. He bled right through his pants at school. They didn't say it but hinted that he can't come to school if that is going to happen.
So, I took him to an urgent care last night. They think he needs to see a rheumatologist. I got a note saying he's not infectious and can come to school. I sent extra clothes to school and talked to his teacher. They seem ok. Now, the problem is getting him an appointment. The waiting list are three months long. I've been looking in other parts of the state to get him in sooner.
I really just want to know whats wrong with my boy.